i'm actually ready for this school year. i want to do well like i used to. last two semesters i have not given a shit about anything. i miss having my good grades. my gpa went down badly due to alcohol and heartbreak. i need to get those a's again. i'm excited.

fuck it.

blah blah blah.

school starts next week. I'm not ready for responsibility just yet. i need a new job. 5 hours a week is barely supporting my car's gas for the week. i still owe people money. a second job, or quit the one i have for a better one? ugh.

i'm way too jealous of a person. i just miss when my friends would text me first and ask me to join them. i miss summer. i feel like they assume that just since me and cory are back together that i won't want to hang out with them or go to parties or something. which is so not true at all. i still want to go to parties, i still want to drink and have fun with them. i don't get it. being in a relationship means no friend time? no. but how do i even bring this up to them without sounding like a bitch? ugh i hate dilemmas

bitches be crazy. hater, that would mean i'd actually have strong feelings towards someone. if someone means nothing to me, that doesn't mean i hate you. you're not worth any sort of emotion from me.

on a happier note. i just made some amazing garlic bread and spaghetti for cory so when he got off work he wouldn't be hungry. god damn i'm thoughtful. and he loved it.

nye

this will be a good year. i can feel it.

so apparently girls are stupid. acting like a drunken, lesbian whore does not make someone want to like you or miss you in any way. he didn't choose to be with you for a reason and acting the way you did made it completely obvious for him to understand WHY you weren't worth any more of his wasted time with you. good job. you made our bond even greater, his reasons for choosing me more worthwhile, and trust me when i say if i would have seen you that night, or any upcoming night and you act like that, i will beat your ass. get over it bitch. it's obvious to everyone that you aren't. way to pretend like you are. good job pretending like you're life is perfect when you're still hung up on him.

i told you that night you were over that if him and i got back together that we would be even stronger, even better together, that we would be able to conquer everything that comes in our way and it would be worth everything we went through. way to prove all of that. keep acting the way you are, keep being a stuck up, ignorant bitch. no one has "officially" been with you for a fucking reason. you're not worth anyone's time. this is the last time you'll ever affect me or his lives. you're worthless.

love my baby, always