i feel like everything i worked for is just going to fall apart soon. cory wants to go off to college, which is totally fine. he has the money to go wherever he wants without having to worry about anything. me on the other hand. i dont have any money. i would have to take out loans and everything and worry constantly if i have enough to live. i dont want to hold him back, but i'm scared to watch him go. i asked if he would compromise but he still said he would go off somewhere. if i decide what i want to do it will still be a lot of money to get it done. im thinking xray technician. its the only thing that i have an interest in that i can actually make a career out of. but im still not sure what i want exactly. i think that im too insecure to handle him going away. we could always try it but i think he knows that it will just end badly. he wants to just end it now if its going to be that way. he doesnt even want to try? i dont know anymore. maybe things just arent meant to be.