just got back from disneyland last night. it was more than amazing. i haven't been in awhile and it was really nice to be able to get away from work and school. cory and i technically went for his birthday, but i think it was definitely more for me. but he said he was happy so i'm glad. birthday churro is better than birthday cake! i think that things are getting better between us. but everytime i say that things come crashing down, we'll see this time. there's a lot of things we have to work through now but obviously we can do it. we've been doing it. and i understand why everything happened the way things did. partly because of me, mostly because of him but shit happens and you just have to keep doing what you think is right. and right now, i think this is right. no maybe i didn't necessarily give myself the chance to fully moved on, but i definitely wasn't holding back either. the guys i met were nothing special, none of them worthwhile. and i try not to waste my time on that unlike some. i know what i want, i've known for four and a half years now. it hasn't changed. we'll see where this is heading. i love being right.