so i'm kind of worried about where this is all going. i don't feel special anymore. i don't feel truly loved. i don't feel wanted. why do i always have to initiate things? does my not being naked or wearing cute undies not count as being ready? i'm sorry but when that happens i feel unwanted or not attractive so why would i want to try and start something after that? this is all so stupid. HOW HARD IS IT TO JUST HAVE SEX WITH ME. ugh