i just fucking want him. he called me today to tell me he was in disneyland and asked what i wanted. why is he even getting me anything. i just want to fucking curl up and die. i dont want to think about the memory of him anymore. i dont want to fucking hurt all the time. i dont want to cry every night wishing that he wanted to hold me while we fall asleep together. i dont want to think about him wanting her. i dont want to hurt anymore. he is so much better off without me though. obviously i'm not strong in any way.



"I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
And I understand why you wouldn't want to"