i dont really think that right now is a good time for me to be typing right now. i just wrote about something on tumblr. i really dont know i wish that i could give up. but i cant. i love him too much. everything i do is for him. each and every thing. i do evertying to make him happy. i saw everything to make him happy. there i things that i could say but i dont, just ot make him happy. it really hard and also frustrating because its like where do we go from here? yeah, she is selfish and complains a lot but i mean what is there anything i could do about that? ugh. i just...i just wish that he could see into the future at least so that hec ould see how he is really supposed to end up with because at least in that case i can just either drop it or not. blah. he is someone who makes me happier than i could ever be right now and that sucks. :[ i just wish that i could be happy. it would make things so much easier. i wish i didnt have to play these games. idk what happened. but idk. i give up on whats "good" or "bad" for be because obviously i dont know... blah.