i'm so lost at this point. i talked to allison online thursday night. i guess i can see why cory likes her. but at the same time... idk. i wish he could just talk to us both in person. and tells us both individually how he feels for us with no restrictions. so we could hear what he says to the other. maybe that would make us want to move on. i don't know. i told her a lot about what he says to me, and she said he says the same thing to her. its like he just replaces our bodies and repeats the same thing to both of us. and i'm sure he says the same thing to her but he said he's never going to get over me, and that he would be able to get over her. who fucking knows if thats true. who knows if that makes it worth staying around. i want to believe what he says to me, but what about what he says to her? i'm just over this whole thing. i just want the truth. i want to crawl inside his brain and see what hes actually feeling.