so i'm ready to just fucking bury myself and never come out again. i hate myself. i hate who i am. i hate how i react. i hate my reasonings. i hate how i treat people. i hate how contradicting i am. i hate that i cant be the right person. i hate how pathetic i am. i hate how nothing i says matches the things i do. i hate that i hate myself. why can't i just accept the way i am? because i'm pathetic, no one should fucking waste their time on me. i just make everything more complicated.

when all i ever wanted to do was be perfect