texts from him that i want to remember

"well its this simple.. we dated for over four years and since we started at a young age we developed such a strong attachment to one another. due to the fact that we've spent so much time and have done everything together. so its safe to say that we are in love and we are one another first love. we broke up because of personal needs, or what i thought i needed. of course you're still going to love me. i haven't moved on and still have this emotional attachment that i can't completely remove you from my life. but there is another girl who i have created this liking-attachment because i am used to being "emotionally attached". but i didnt just like her because she was available, i like her because she is/was here for me when i needed it. and im not pushing you aside, you've done so much for me and i know i still love and care about you as much as i did when we were still dating. i always want you around. but now you are trying to figure out what to do. should you wait around for me to see if i come back to you or should you move on because of me having allison. so in a sense, you're waiting for me to decide who i am going to be with. and i honestly do not know. if i wanted to be with her, i would've been by now. but if i wanted to be with you, i wouldve just gone back out with you. so not it is a waiting game and is really stupid. thats why i dont want either of you to "waste" your time by waiting for me. its not fair to either of you. so i'm sorry i'm not helping your situation by talking to or hanging out with you. but you are my best friend and one of the only people i can talk to. so if you want me to stop all of this, i can. i understand. "